A Little Splash of Color and a Whole Lot of Doubt
So I've begun painting again and I'm a little rusty. It's been quite a while, since I've truly put brush to paper in an effort to create a piece of art.
But I'm doing it.
I am starting out with one of my favorite subjects, florals. I drew a beautiful image of different flowers grouped together surrounded by ribbon. I loved the drawing, the flowers came out just as I had envisioned. I am pretty good at the sketch and draw part of a picture. When it comes to dropping watercolors in an piece, the doubt creeps in..... especially because it has been quite a while since I've dabbled. I prefer the rough around the edges approach when it comes to painting. I have learned after years, that I am not a human camera and cannot reproduce an image that I see like a camera snaps a shot. But I love the loose, layered and rough way of dropping watercolors on paper. It took me a while just to get to develop that technique AND develop a love for the result. I had to find my way, ya know? But I did. I developed my technique and how I like for it to look.
But as I delve into this new piece, its been rough trying to remember how I liked to do it. What happened to muscle memory? Goodness. Maybe I should have practiced before actually diving right in. But no, not me, I swore that I had it. I layered and layered. Then I lamented. Then I walked away and said goodnight.
When I woke up the following morning. I went into my little makeshift studio and just looked at it. Then I had a moment of clarity. I actually painted. It's been so long. So what if my technique wasn't quite the way it was years ago. I painted. Things started to not look so bad. I painted. The colors were bright and my flow in the painting so far will develop and grow just as it had before. I painted and that was the biggest accomplishment above all. The creative flow and desire to take pigment, water, a paintbrush and paper to create a pieced of art had all come flooding back. That creative flow will continue to pour out and create many other watercolors. The passion is back, the love is back, the want to paint is back.
That love, passion, desire and want are all feelings that I am so grateful to have flowing through me again.
Guess what y'all.
Below is the beginning stage of my floral piece. And I am quite proud.